Why shouldn't I worry about you? Concern for one another's well-being is part of friendship, and we are friends, aren't we? [...] Rather more than that, I suppose. You know I care about you deeply, frustrating though you may be. I will gladly worry about you, and, if you allow it, do what I can to ease whatever weighs on you. So let me take care of you, Domingo.
[...] At times I worry that whatever we'rethiswhat we ha what we've been doing is too one-sided because you've taken care of me in so many ways already.
Please don't ask me for particulars — I can't offer them, and I'm not inclined to dissect it just now.
Someone recently informed me that they once considered making a very serious commitment to me. There was even a ring, one they thought would suit me. They chose not to buy it. They bought one for someone else instead, which is only sensible, really. Theirs is the more legitimate relationship, and ours was never truly an option for any number of reasons. It wasn't meant to be. Still, the revelation has left me reeling more than I would have predicted. I know this is an awkward question to pose to someone I'm involved with, and I hope it doesn't put you in an uncomfortable position. [...] But do I strike you as someone a person might [...] choose? I mean, truly choose. Or am I someone better suited to admiration from a distance — appreciated and desired, but never the center of someone's world?
[...] I'm extraordinarily handsome, witty, smart, and a great fuck. But am I just fun or do I have any appeal as a long term partner? From a general POV.
Of course you do, Nikola. I believe an assumption to the contrary may be less lack of appeal and more a general notion that, to those who don't know you [...] intimately enough, you may not seem interested in such a thing. Why are Have you [...] tried to pursue a relationship of that nature since moving to the Mnemo?
Someone informed me that they once considered making a very serious commitment to me. There was even a ring, one they thought would suit me. They chose not to buy it. They bought one for someone else instead, which is only sensible, really. Theirs is the more legitimate relationship, and ours was never truly an option for any number of reasons. It wasn't meant to be, and I'm at peace with that.
Still, the revelation has left me reeling more than I would have predicted.
And I reiterate my point: if they know you well enough to consider a ring, they know both your worth and what they denied themselves. Only an idiot would do that. How long agWho do I
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Please don't ask me for particulars — I can't offer them, and I'm not inclined to dissect it just now.
Someone recently informed me that they once considered making a very serious commitment to me. There was even a ring, one they thought would suit me. They chose not to buy it. They bought one for someone else instead, which is only sensible, really. Theirs is the more legitimate relationship, and ours was never truly an option for any number of reasons. It wasn't meant to be. Still, the revelation has left me reeling more than I would have predicted. I know this is an awkward question to pose to someone I'm involved with, and I hope it doesn't put you in an uncomfortable position. [...] But do I strike you as someone a person might [...] choose? I mean, truly choose. Or am I someone better suited to admiration from a distance — appreciated and desired, but never the center of someone's world?
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Of course you do, Nikola. I believe an assumption to the contrary may be less lack of appeal and more a general notion that, to those who don't know you [...] intimately enough, you may not seem interested in such a thing.
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However, the reason I ask is [...] complicated. I don't know that I can explain it easily.
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II'll come find you.[...] As for the ring story, perhaps we forget about it. It was a minor personal blip in an otherwise very busy week.
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